Wow...another harsh Vermont winter...and more blues and pain, but what else is new? I think the hardest part of being sick is that it doesn't follow the rules that society makes you follow and just causes you to get even worse...anyone who thinks our health care system is working should check out the horror story that is my medical history...all because I trusted men who were acting like omniscient men, whose hubris astounds me to this day...just thinking that one mistake could cause such calamity, but two, three and then just over and over...how? How do I fight this? Get a job so I can have at least enough money without having to go hungry when I have wasting disease...how can anyone live alone on 1k month??? Oh well...at least out of the hospital for now...seem okay...that is good...just wish I had something to DO...besides computer stuff...something creative...okay, a stand up act...but how? Where? When? That way MandM will not be judged by my "return" and I can use these experiences to some end...silver lining can come out anytime now, I is lonely...
